| Inclinations and Directionality |
[14 Apr 2008|12:34am] |
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Events are aplenty, but they are not quite coming into focus.
Quantum physics class has been going downhill; the textbook has gone from sometimes confusing to generally nonsensical (wtf is photon gas?), and the subject matter is now pushing into the territory of applying what seemingly meager understanding of the theory we have.
Yesterday I danced all day and night. Capoeira under the sun. Then contra for the evening. Then breakdancing as witching hour neared; the first time I've actually had a significant crowd form around me. I'm not very good at it, and I have about 2 moves, maybe 3.
Some friends of mine are forming a writing group, and I've tentatively joined, under the understanding that I'm not really a writer and not particularly well-read. I still have story ideas - rather complex notions of plot, emotion and humor - but still cannot eloquently express them in story. I seem to have some sort of structural intuition, like I can feel/see/hear how things work and happen, but then I can't always translate them - not that I mind this too much, since it's very useful in computer science especially.
Last week, I was considering Buddhist notions of emotion and thought. Such things intrigue me, because they address some of my major concerns. For example, the cold eye, freedom from the constant need to judge and evaluate everything one sees.
I don't exactly have a sense of focus now. I want to be brilliant, charismatic and maybe most of all safe. I don't feel like sleeping, so maybe I'll write, read or code.
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